Questions not meant to be answered, but to be lived with. Sit with them. Let them work on you.
You built the practice so you could control your time. Now the schedule controls you and you call it success.
You've done three thousand of them. That's why you're fast. That's also why you stopped asking if this one needed to be done at all.
You eat standing up, checking labs, answering messages, and call it a break. The break never happened. You just chewed between tasks.
You're annoyed she no-showed again. She's terrified and hasn't told anyone why. You're both sitting with the same empty chair, seeing completely different things.
You dreamed of owning your own practice. Someone finally offered. Now you're lying awake wondering if what you actually loved was the dreaming.
These koans are part of an ongoing series. New reflections are published as the practice teaches them to me.
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